so much pain

I cannot tolerate the idea of my mother being dead. I am trying my level best. But my mother is not. recovering. My elder brother are doing well. But iam not able to tolerate. I have lost a couple of kg weight. When I think, for last many days my mother even didn't exist in my life. 1 Phone call in the evening was all that used to connect us. I always used to feel disturbed by phone call. But I never thought that the idea of my mother getting separated will give me such pain. But I can not get out of it. I know mother is not going to live forever. But I cannot tolerate the idea. Oh God save my mother this time. Ma tell me what to do , give me the strength, i can not live in this problem.

truth of life

God has made our body amenable to death. No man woman however powerful is able to live according to his desire. Is there will be total vacuum after her death. Everyday, everytime you will remember her, but she cannot survive. Only way to keep her immortal is to die before her death. Otherwise if you live she has to go one day. She will be irreplaceable but it is God's plan of work to do things like that. You cannot change that. Try as much as you can then carry with your activities because probably God wants it that way. No father or mother is allowed allowed to live for ever. You are taking too much of stress which is harmful for you. Just think how irregularly you used to visit your parents, how much annoyed you used to get by receiving their phone calls. So their job for you is over. Now you have to do job for you son..So try to save her her life but do not get too much stressed.

my mother

My mother had CVA last Friday. She had one episode of vomiting and the she could not stand any more. Brought in quickly to Rampurhat I admitted her to Asha NH. Ct scan revealed  intracerebral hge. With intra ventricular extension. Mother responded well initially before slipping into coma. She is not responding for last two days. My father is asking to remove life support.

new battle in Rampurhat

Dr siddhartha biswas is propagating whatever he is doing. He is too media friendly. I have to dislodge him.

kota 3rd time

Going to kota for 3rd time. As always I prefer to travel  by train. Ac two tier side lower birth.

119 and 120th lap chole (59 and 60)

Ist one was easy, 2nd one was tough. Last one gave me one sleepless night since i thought cbd injury might have happened. But God saved me as there was no bile leak or jaundice after 2 days.

ot patients dried up

Just like every yr i am doing less operation pt now. Doing chamber everyday. Getting chamber pt but no ot pt. I know this is temporary