practice is at lowest

Hardly manage to see 10 pts a day.

challenge

Challenge is ti keep my mother alive. More challenging is to keep her happy.

161st lap chole

Another couple of lap chole done.

is it angina

After a long time I am asking this question

Point in favour..1. some radiation to arm and forearm. Decrease on rest. Now cons..

Pain on lateral chest wall. Not central. No pain on running. It increasedafter death of my father. I had lot of stress and anxiety then. I t is only eight yrs after yang. I am having similar pain rt from beginning. I can climb 4th floor without any chest pain. Anginal pain radiates to upper arm not forearm.

Any way I have to be cautious 

Left kaitha with mother

Finally that day came. We had to lock our kaitha residence under lock and key and leave with our mother. I brought mother with me to Rampurhat.  I shall always regret that I my father wanted to come to Rampurhat but I could not bring him. Now my challenge is to to keep my mother alive as long as possible.

20 days gone

Recovered a little. Still cannot sleep after i wake up at 2 am. Today i shall be taking mother to my flat. So much thing to do. I had to do banking job. .

More jobs left. Transferring pension to mother's name. Probting the will. Organising   land and properties .

Meanwhile News came Rupam's Father and manas's mother is also dead. Old men are dying this winter.

It is a terrible feeling. I still can not believe that my father is no more. He will not call me or i shall not be able to see him again.

9 days gone

My father is dead .We are taking special kind of meal. I.am.feeling terrible. extremely weak. Dono know how to.get out of this. Terrible.

unable to recover

I am unable to recover even after 7 days. It is so devastating. I donot know How long will it take. I am horrified. I am lost. I am not able to reorganise myself. This is  a terrible feeling. God give me strength pls. I am loosing the battle.