practice is at lowest

Hardly manage to see 10 pts a day.

challenge

Challenge is ti keep my mother alive. More challenging is to keep her happy.

161st lap chole

Another couple of lap chole done.

is it angina

After a long time I am asking this question

Point in favour..1. some radiation to arm and forearm. Decrease on rest. Now cons..

Pain on lateral chest wall. Not central. No pain on running. It increasedafter death of my father. I had lot of stress and anxiety then. I t is only eight yrs after yang. I am having similar pain rt from beginning. I can climb 4th floor without any chest pain. Anginal pain radiates to upper arm not forearm.

Any way I have to be cautious 

Left kaitha with mother

Finally that day came. We had to lock our kaitha residence under lock and key and leave with our mother. I brought mother with me to Rampurhat.  I shall always regret that I my father wanted to come to Rampurhat but I could not bring him. Now my challenge is to to keep my mother alive as long as possible.

20 days gone

Recovered a little. Still cannot sleep after i wake up at 2 am. Today i shall be taking mother to my flat. So much thing to do. I had to do banking job. .

More jobs left. Transferring pension to mother's name. Probting the will. Organising   land and properties .

Meanwhile News came Rupam's Father and manas's mother is also dead. Old men are dying this winter.

It is a terrible feeling. I still can not believe that my father is no more. He will not call me or i shall not be able to see him again.

9 days gone

My father is dead .We are taking special kind of meal. I.am.feeling terrible. extremely weak. Dono know how to.get out of this. Terrible.

unable to recover

I am unable to recover even after 7 days. It is so devastating. I donot know How long will it take. I am horrified. I am lost. I am not able to reorganise myself. This is  a terrible feeling. God give me strength pls. I am loosing the battle.

what I could have done

Took father for angiography and plasty.

Was there negligence on my part?

Angiography too risky for this age.

What I did..

1.gave medication as advised by physicians cardiologist.

Did ECG.. which was normal.

Took date for echo which never happened.

Regularly visited father.

Nothing helped as...

He was suffering  from unstable.angina.

Disease progressed very rapidly in a span of one month.

rik failed to pass in biochemistry in test

I am still not able to recover from death of my father. Still worse , Rik failed in biochemistry. It  i am battling a war inside me. It  is very tough. Putting Rik in mbbs may be a wrong decision.

was the death preventable.

He was suffering from unstable angina. Heart failure. Received all medications as advised by cardiologists and Physicians. The next thing  possible was angioplasty which was too risky in this age. I am mentally shattered. All people are saying this thing is to continue for two months atleast. My father died at the age of 89, in active state, nothing can be better than this. Everybody is destined to die. I am totaly shocked but I must get over it. This is part of life. I am a doctor, so I believe that I could have saved him. Good joke!

my father

I still cannot believe that father is no more

Death of my Father

My Father died. He was suffering from angina and resp distress. I tried to do whatever I could. But that was not enough. He was 89. Lived long. Could have lived a little longer. But it did not matter.

harvest season

Patients are decreasing. As usual

158 and 159th lap chole

Lap chole are being done by me more frequently fly than before.

soft tissue tumour by sabysachi

Today sabyasachi was doing a soft tissue tumour in Apanjan NH. It was deep to deep.fascia. After trying for quite some time, he could not do it. He decided to.abandon the procedure. Called me . I did it in 30 secs precisely. Gave me lot of pleasure.

155,156, and 157th lap chole

Three lap chole in 3 days in asha nh.

built a pc

It is a dream come true. I built my pc. Pretty high config. After lot anxiety, tension, i finally built my oc

nephrectomy

There was a huge non functioning kidney. I did nephrectomy through transpersonal approach.

building cimputer

I am going to build a computer. I ordered everything on Amazon. I am excited about it.

153 & 154th lap chole

Did well. Did fast. Pt went home after two days

152nd lap chole

Could not separate duct and artery... Mass ligature with extracorporeal knot

flashed bios

Today I flashed bios of my gigabyte motherboard. First one!! Little tensed. But it was okay.

151st lap chole

Another 3 lap chole in apa kan took my tally to 151

147 and 148th lap chole

I47th lap chole developed hemopereitoneum and I had to reexplore in the evening. No bleeder was found. Probably portsite bleeding from epigastrium was the cause. 148th lap was done in Apanjan NH. Male gall bladder nicely done.

52nd birthday

145 and 146th lap chole.

Another couple done. Lap chole is becoming little enjoyable.

MUKU

Our parrot. Stayed with us for 6 month. Then tried to fly from window. Could not go much distance. .Dropped to a nearby place. Few street dogs killed it instantly. It became like our family member. It also accepted us as it's family. I felt like crying. My daughter cried.  We should not have pets. Their separation is so painful. I casually snapped it couple of days ago. Didnot know that it is going to be the last memoir of it.

143 and 144th lap chole

Done well

142nd lap chole

Did lap chole in retrograde fashion

140 and 141 lap chole

Another couple of lap chole done.

covid continues

Total no of new infections is going down but no of deaths increasing. Covid paradox?

covid

Almost everybody around  us is getting covid. Sickening feeling. I do not know whether we can survive this pandemic. The world is recovering. But India is absolutely rattled. More than 4 lakh cases everyday. More than 4000 deaths. Horrible.

139th lap chole

Female.sludge GB. Done well

corona 2nd wave

Corona 2nd wave devastated the country. Daily infection rate rose ulto 4 lakhs a day, with almost 4000 people dying everyday. 

Mamta Banerjee elected for 3rd time. I did not want her to win . But in democracy majority decides.

long case in MBBS

examiner in MMCH

After taking exam in MMCH

external examiner

1st time. I came to murshidabad medical college as external examiner for 3rd prof mbbs exam

138th lap chole

Male, gb polyp. Done in 30 mins.

136th and 137th lap chole

One male another female. 

135th lap chole

Done nicely in asha n h.

rik dropped to KPC hostel

It is a two seater room. Another first yr named somnath kundu is his room mate.

Rik's first day at KPC

Totally chaotic. Nothing in comparison to my experience. They were busy in collecting money in anti ragging bond paper. No class or address by different HODs as happened in our time. Any way baggers should not complain.

134th and 1st lap chole

I did 1st lap chole in Rampur Hat hospital. Easy case, did well.

corona vaccine

I received covid vaccine today with the hope that this will be the end of pandemic.