mother called me

Mother was alright in the morning. Suddenly she vomited in the afternoon and created some panic. Recovered. And said "pulak koi"  I went near her and said "Ma". She replied "Byata" i repeated it 3 times got same reply. I was amazed. Ma also recognised Santu. Mother needs lot of physiotherapy. I shall try oral feeding tomorrow. It's a long battle and i want to win it.

mother improving

She became little serious in the morning. Recovered well. Spontaneous eye opening. Eye opening on speech consistently. 

mother

Occasional spontaneous eye opening .eye opening to speech. Lateral neck movement.

20th and 21st day of mother

Slow but definite improvement. 1.smuth respiration.2. rate consistently below 26.     Mother opening eye on pain. Verbal response though not convincing. Parameters are normal. Everybody is getting frustrated Including my father. But rapid improvement is not going to occur. I shall keep a log  of mother's improvements.

16 days

Mother is in coma. She can breathe without oxygen. No response whatsoever. To think mother has not called me for 15 days."ki korchho beta". I am desperate to hear that again. My two elderbrothers has adjusted quite well to situation. I cannot. Why? Did my mother love me more? Or did  I love her the most? Or am I an emotional fool.

14 th day

Today is 14th day my mother is in coma. Only for a minute or two mother wakes up talks one or two words ,then slips back to coma. I am feeling exhausted.

so much pain

I cannot tolerate the idea of my mother being dead. I am trying my level best. But my mother is not. recovering. My elder brother are doing well. But iam not able to tolerate. I have lost a couple of kg weight. When I think, for last many days my mother even didn't exist in my life. 1 Phone call in the evening was all that used to connect us. I always used to feel disturbed by phone call. But I never thought that the idea of my mother getting separated will give me such pain. But I can not get out of it. I know mother is not going to live forever. But I cannot tolerate the idea. Oh God save my mother this time. Ma tell me what to do , give me the strength, i can not live in this problem.

truth of life

God has made our body amenable to death. No man woman however powerful is able to live according to his desire. Is there will be total vacuum after her death. Everyday, everytime you will remember her, but she cannot survive. Only way to keep her immortal is to die before her death. Otherwise if you live she has to go one day. She will be irreplaceable but it is God's plan of work to do things like that. You cannot change that. Try as much as you can then carry with your activities because probably God wants it that way. No father or mother is allowed allowed to live for ever. You are taking too much of stress which is harmful for you. Just think how irregularly you used to visit your parents, how much annoyed you used to get by receiving their phone calls. So their job for you is over. Now you have to do job for you son..So try to save her her life but do not get too much stressed.

my mother

My mother had CVA last Friday. She had one episode of vomiting and the she could not stand any more. Brought in quickly to Rampurhat I admitted her to Asha NH. Ct scan revealed  intracerebral hge. With intra ventricular extension. Mother responded well initially before slipping into coma. She is not responding for last two days. My father is asking to remove life support.